wow, how long has it been...9 months.
i haven't get on here like forever.
oh well.

life is just fine right now. maybe a little bit worse than fine.

applying for colleges are not that bad, but i don't really like writing all those essays. and i'm applying to 10 colleges...which means 20 essays for me.

i really should try and get a job. but maybe i want to wait til all my application stuff is done. i need money really bad, since lots of my old stuff stop working. or almost broken.

i think my crush don't/won't like me. i really want to get over echikun right now, but i know inside me i'm still hoping that i have a chance...

i found that i'm now more realistic. i used to be a romanticism believer, heh. in my opinion i don't like how i am right now. the only thing to do is to change.

sometimes school bores me. did i mention all the drama among my friends really grinds my gear? ugh. i'm glad i'm neutral (kinda). i don't wanna get involved in any of them!

so i think i should try to create some works and put it on here. i'll try....

i thought get over someone is hard. but after my crush for the artist last year died in a week, maybe i'm just overreacting.

i'm 19 but i'm still a stupid teenager.